Its been a month since I last wrote to her. I miss her so much. but this time I think I am gonna make it across. I think I am not going to call her this time. I pickup my phone every now and then and open our last chat to see whether she is online. I should stop doing that. I want to hold her right now. be around her. at the same time I don't want this to happen. its like my body needs her but I know this should not happen. I don't know how much time I am going to take to get over her. its been more than 2 years now since we broke up. I want to see her. I wanna get lost in those arms again. I miss the calmness and the euphoria in those arms. I miss the softness of her lips. the way her teeth used to hurt me while kissing her. miss the softness of her skin. miss those long black hair. Why it had to be like this? What lesson am I supposed to take from this? She took all my hopes. My basic character has changed. She went away and took everything with her. I am ...
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26th Nov. 2017 11:55PM I have not studied for quite some days now. I am not feeling like studying. I want to be left alone right now. i dont want all these people around me. I have been drinking for last 3 days. last night we went to party to Indore. All we could do was to watch girls and nothing more. tried to go inside a pub but could not manage. This all is an escape. I have not stopped loving her. Although the condition has improved. What I could learn from all my time with her and without her was that she does not deserve my love. I dont want to be with her yet I love her. I have started hating her (trying). Its certainly not lust. All i want is to be in her company. but she cant help being a bitch. She cant help but ill treat me. This blog i think can help me in venting out my anger and frustration. I feel empty since the time she has left. i need to build myself up the way i did before her. i was something at that time. more self respect and better person....