Healing

Its been a month since I last wrote to her. I miss her so much. but this time I think I am gonna make it across. I think I am not going to call her this time. I pickup my phone every now and then and open our last chat to see whether she is online. I should stop doing that. I want to hold her right now. be around her. at the same time I don't want this to happen. its like my body needs her but I know this should not happen. I don't know how much time I am going to take to get over her. its been more than 2 years now since we broke up. I want to see her. I wanna get lost in those arms again. I miss the calmness and the euphoria in those arms. I miss the softness of her lips. the way her teeth used to hurt me while kissing her. miss the softness of her skin. miss those long black hair. Why it had to be like this?  What lesson am I supposed to take from this?  She took all my hopes. My basic character has changed. She went away and took everything with her. I am ...